I am a fighter.
I was programmed to fight for the things in life that I thought were important to me. When someone told me I would “never able to do”, or “never make it in this world as”…I fought to prove them wrong.
My entire life, I have fought every battle for myself and for those who ask, and for some who haven’t asked. I like to win, and I like to bring forward people who like to win with me. I continue to be put in my place with people, places and things that appear out of nowhere or obstacles I hadn’t thought of that beat me down. I think those are not failures, they are in fact lessons in life. Hard facts but truths.
Being a female business owner in a man’s business has been very difficult…it has taken a toll on me and many other women. It hardens women and takes away the softness we are born to have. I miss that.
I watched a tiktok video of a woman who talked extensively about how she left the corporate world because she saw her life going down the path of such ridged sides and too many boundaries. I related to that so much. But those who are my age, we were groomed for that control mechanism and taught that is the life we are supposed to have.
If there is one thing I LOVE about millennials, is that they demand to live life without these boundaries and are forging forward in life as way-showers on how we really are supposed to live. The constructs of who we thought we are supposed to be should be defined by us and not society. It is time to break the programming.
I believe that the corporate world became so hard they forgot who they serve, and how to serve them. We are watching the destruction of the corporate simulation now.
As we move forward to the close of this year, I look back on this year and my life and realize many things. The biggest one is that I was always and have always tried to control so much for myself thinking I am a party of one. When I should have turned it over to God many times over. I find myself trying to take control out of habit right now on many fronts, but I guess through age comes the wisdom of realizing that I am not responsible for the things I can’t control. But I can pray for those things, and hand it over to God to fight those battle for me, especially the ones that need to be fought by God.
I am not alone, and neither are you!
You are not the only one in the battle you are in, and there are people ready to reach out and help but we must ask then for help. And I know firsthand that we have been taught not to do that, and it makes it hard. We were programmed to think asking for help makes us weak. The freedom in asking for help, it is a blessing!
Doing it by yourself is tiring, doing the work is actually harder than handing it over to God and/or asking for help.
The KEY is recognizing what needs to be done or changed in order to hand it over (or ask for help).
2023 is up in the air! Who knows what will happen because as I walk from day to day, I literally am walking into each day without a plan right now. It is evident that the old paradigms are falling way side, and I will let them. The butterfly cannot emerge without letting go of its cocoon.
This past weekend I spent several hours going through all my old jewelry, and I found myself back in time remembering who I was so long ago. I remembered a softer, gentler me….I am ready to meet her again.
Death of the old, and the birth of New
Minute by minute changes, and day by day we see new light on what is now old as we walk into what is new.
Live like there is no tomorrow
Dream as if you know they will come true
Learn to embrace the freedoms that God gave you!
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“A great beginning is sometimes at the point of what you thought would be the end of everything” – Dodinksy
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